i love you xox

It is a strange feeling. . .
The love, , , basically. . . and the idea, that it might all work out!
And the love.

I can’t find the reasons, the other worldly feelings.… Read the rest

ouch… a long night

I feel so sad.
So lost.

When I talk to some of the medical professionals it seems more likely that this is ‘all in my head’.
In the middle of the night, alone and out of runway, the story in my head feels a lot more real somehow.… Read the rest

the only way

i woke up at 3:30 AM this morning. Shocked to awakening by the thought of someone I have let down.

3:30 AM

And now I can’t keep my etes ope,,, night night ((x))… Read the rest

awe

Eek!

The sun might yet come out from behind these hormonal clouds yet!!

That would be ideal.

Gratitude doesn’t come close to expressing this mosaic of feeling.… Read the rest