the bitter winds of loneliness feel like truth in my soul.
perhaps i imagined the whole thing.
and now i have to stitch back together the pieces of my reality and my heart.
i feel like building a completely different world.… Read the rest
Blah LaLa
love where perhaps it shouldn’t be
I am not okay.
This is a deep cut.… Read the rest
repercussions
The truth is that the reason I am not in that room tonight listening to music I have loved for 25 years of my life is the same reason why I should leave and never come back.
It isn’t just about the music.… Read the rest
these days have finally nearly passed
There is something so solid and comforting about the unfolding of reality sometimes.
I probably won’t sleep very well tonight.
But every day over the past few weeks I have become progressively less invested in the idea that I exist within some kind of expectation.… Read the rest
up the anti
I am bored.
I want something exciting to get involved in.
What could that something beeeeee?
Walking home in the rain was intense this afternoon. I have never seen rain like it in Melbourne. Nothing that heavy.… Read the rest
a little less invested
Estrogen is an interesting beast.
This morning I realised that I feel a little jealous.
It suddenly seemed like a waste of effort to invest in relationships that are so obviously side projects from your main relationship.
Although I am talking to a few people right now, I am not sure that I am a fan of non-monogamy.… Read the rest
no motivation to speak of!!
i don’t feel like writing.
I don’t feel like working.
A walk out in the blustery weather would be ideal.
But I need to wait for two parcels to get delivered.
And, , , … Read the rest
pills with benefits, hehe
Maybe I just won’t buy alcohol anymore!!!
It has been done before!!
I feel good sometimes, lately.
Happy too 🙂… Read the rest
except for the wine
My doctor is clinically insane, hehe, , , and I can’t stop laughing, , , hehe, , ,
She is just so strange. . . 12 red blood cells, ,, (two above the norm) and she sends me to surgery.
Poorly hormonal status and she gives me 50 mcg of estrogen, which is quite a moderate (not a small) dose.… Read the rest
not even slightly ideal
Hmmmmmm, haha. . .
I am not convinced, I have to say!!
A walk was nice, , , , but I am filled to the gills with something. . .
And I am also extremely tipsy, , , which is just not like me at all.… Read the rest