something important

A friend of a friend posted a photo of her dog in happier times.
It made me think about life and death.

About how some creatures and some people are precious.

What would life be without those people?… Read the rest

in absence

I would do anything to climb into a hug today.

Time has become some kind of hard edge.

All these years are buried beneath the surface of my mood.

I just want to be close.

The gaslighting has no explanation.… Read the rest

a missing piece

There is also a rather large pink elephant in the room.

I am not going to name it right now, because it isn’t my style.

But I am noticing it, and it doesn’t feel all that healthy if I am honest!… Read the rest

logical assumption

‘Oh well’???

If the particular flavour of terror that my mind opens up to most mornings these days is anything to go by, I have made another stupid mistake. (It could just be hormones).

If I could get angry I would say that the reasoning behind this possible mistake was a very clear and undeniable indication that I simply would not be welcome there.… Read the rest

strange days

If I wasn’t listening to music with rapt attention would I be listening to someone telling a story?

The whole attachment situation is confusing, so I may simply refrain from comment.

Or just say – it is not exactly productive!… Read the rest

isolated any which way

Splats.

There is something sobering about a situation where it simultaneously feels like I have made a terrible mistake and ‘it is all in my head’.

So it feels like the world is about to fall apart, it is my fault and yet at the same time I am completely foolish, and unable to share my fears with another living soul.… Read the rest