Angry, angry, angry.
Yesterday I had a vision of myself being VERY VERY Angry at a protest. .. I feel angry now.
And that would be a GOOD thing right?
To get angry enough to actually stand up and say ‘eff this!!’… Read the rest
Blah LaLa
grrrrr. – – – — doing WHAT?
What am I in actual fact, , , doing???
Am I ok with the idea of sitting around on my bum for 8 hours 9or more) a day, five days (or more a week)?
I could carve out a professional niche professionally perhaps.… Read the rest
what would be good
Maybe the coast isn’t it.
Unless it is.
Maybe there is somewhere for me.
i suppose I am just hung up on the fact that my timing was poor.
I wasn’t supposed to be there 2024/2025. I was supposed to be there 2025/2026.… Read the rest
a different kind of magnet
I am not going to lie.
I am still drawn to the coast this year.
There is quite a bit happening up there.
And my moon and stars are talking about a different community, might be able to get out from under this family business sticky ick if I am there.… Read the rest
funk
This doesn’t sound or feel good.
Maybe I aM supposed to be somewhere.
Maybe I was right about that.
And yet with their words people will say that I should be here with this ball and chain dog.
All I want to do is touch base with you in the real world.… Read the rest
the desire to abscond
Maybe I have been feeling like I need to escape because of something that is happening with the moon and the stars.
I have certainly felt for quite a while now that I don’t ‘belong’ in Melbourne right now.
And I am not entirely sure ‘why’.… Read the rest
slowly killing me
Would you like to know what is wrong with me?
(Apart from the obvious issues arising from my mental illness).
It is this house.
It is so wrong for me.
Sometimes, when I am in it I feel like I need to detonate myself like a bomb.… Read the rest
broken and expected to show up
To up and travel might be a lonelier kind of life.
Lonelier than nurturing the roots of my friendship here.
Or somewhere.
I am feeling like there is someone missing from my life.
And it feels so weird that I should keep writing, when no one gets in touch.… Read the rest
a break from my favourites
I still don’t feel like I belong in my neighbourhood this year.
Feel like I gotsta get out and explore the world.
Can’t spend this year revisiting old favourites in this city.
Just gotta stand up and make it happen – no matter what it takes!… Read the rest
real life high
Something has lifted overnight.
And now, I want a ‘real life high’. I want to do something in my world that will lift the roof off my mood.
Because I am back to baseline, perhaps.
A morning coffee is a little bit of that.… Read the rest