Maybe music is the only thing that will make me feel.… Read the rest
Blah LaLa
saying nothing
I feel sad.
I want to give up.
Reaching out when I am in a balanced state of mind leaves me feeling empty.… Read the rest
blank walls and empty spaces
I guess I just feel thwarted.
I send these thoughts and ideas out into the world.
But there is no real connection from you.
Or I am in my house on a wintry Wednesday afternoon, and you are leaving me alone.… Read the rest
it is very early!!
Hello,
I don’t feel so good!
I am not sure if I can trust Astro, , , and also, that is true, , , the person who was ‘egging me on’ had no idea how things would turn out, ,, it was an experiment@!Halala.… Read the rest
interesting only as a log of my mind
I think it is true – it is better to be ‘moody’ than ‘hyper’.
Even if it took a good while to come back to base.
Maybe even if I never find my spirit under this rock.
Hopefully I can mend some of these impacts.… Read the rest
a bit dangerous!!
The sun came out today, and I have a thirst that only beer could quench.
It is tempting, because it is happy hour – and, , , I am worried that once I start with a beer who knows where I will end up, given the mood that I am in!!… Read the rest
maybe everything is changing
the bitter winds of loneliness feel like truth in my soul.
perhaps i imagined the whole thing.
and now i have to stitch back together the pieces of my reality and my heart.
i feel like building a completely different world.… Read the rest
love where perhaps it shouldn’t be
I am not okay.
This is a deep cut.… Read the rest
repercussions
The truth is that the reason I am not in that room tonight listening to music I have loved for 25 years of my life is the same reason why I should leave and never come back.
It isn’t just about the music.… Read the rest
these days have finally nearly passed
There is something so solid and comforting about the unfolding of reality sometimes.
I probably won’t sleep very well tonight.
But every day over the past few weeks I have become progressively less invested in the idea that I exist within some kind of expectation.… Read the rest