I think it is true – it is better to be ‘moody’ than ‘hyper’.
Even if it took a good while to come back to base.
Maybe even if I never find my spirit under this rock.
Hopefully I can mend some of these impacts.… Read the rest
Blah LaLa
a bit dangerous!!
The sun came out today, and I have a thirst that only beer could quench.
It is tempting, because it is happy hour – and, , , I am worried that once I start with a beer who knows where I will end up, given the mood that I am in!!… Read the rest
maybe everything is changing
the bitter winds of loneliness feel like truth in my soul.
perhaps i imagined the whole thing.
and now i have to stitch back together the pieces of my reality and my heart.
i feel like building a completely different world.… Read the rest
love where perhaps it shouldn’t be
I am not okay.
This is a deep cut.… Read the rest
repercussions
The truth is that the reason I am not in that room tonight listening to music I have loved for 25 years of my life is the same reason why I should leave and never come back.
It isn’t just about the music.… Read the rest
these days have finally nearly passed
There is something so solid and comforting about the unfolding of reality sometimes.
I probably won’t sleep very well tonight.
But every day over the past few weeks I have become progressively less invested in the idea that I exist within some kind of expectation.… Read the rest
up the anti
I am bored.
I want something exciting to get involved in.
What could that something beeeeee?
Walking home in the rain was intense this afternoon. I have never seen rain like it in Melbourne. Nothing that heavy.… Read the rest
a little less invested
Estrogen is an interesting beast.
This morning I realised that I feel a little jealous.
It suddenly seemed like a waste of effort to invest in relationships that are so obviously side projects from your main relationship.
Although I am talking to a few people right now, I am not sure that I am a fan of non-monogamy.… Read the rest
no motivation to speak of!!
i don’t feel like writing.
I don’t feel like working.
A walk out in the blustery weather would be ideal.
But I need to wait for two parcels to get delivered.
And, , , … Read the rest
pills with benefits, hehe
Maybe I just won’t buy alcohol anymore!!!
It has been done before!!
I feel good sometimes, lately.
Happy too 🙂… Read the rest