Oooch.
I am all at sea. Haha.
It feels like forever until bedtime… And I am thinking of the kind Japanese man who loved to look at the light through the leaves in the trees from the movie I saw yesterday.
My ‘other’ sound friend doesn’t like anything that I am doing tonight. They don’t want to bake apple pie, and they don’t want me to write, and who knows what else.
I feel strange inside. Maybe this drop wasn’t such a GOOD IDEA. . . or maybe things will calm down a little in the coming days and I will find a new equilibrium. I hope that is what happens!
I feel so strange in my body.
I wanted to hop into bed to lie down for a bit and I was looking at a picture of (who I think is) Turtle, but the idea of so much as hugging him feels so weird and strange and not good.
Lately, I have come to learn that perhaps this is a ‘part’ of me, as in the psychological theory of IFS or Internal Family Systems. I started to talk to this ‘part’ recently and it told me that it doesn’t want me to get hurt.
It is so prickly. It doesn’t want anyone to touch me or to come anywhere near me! I hope I can show this part that people CAN be trusted and that I can be trusted too.
How are you all? Did you have a good weekend? Sorry I have been so talkative today. It is very strange. Maybe I will make this apple pie now. Thanks for listening if you are still around xx
