Holding on to the moments in my life between these psychoses.
Wanting those moments to last a little longer.
Because everything else is for the bin.
Standing in the light for a moment,
Knowing that it will come around again.
Nothing I can do to stop it.
I will trash myself,
I will decimate my connections through these online channels.
Perhaps partially because the person I trusted wants to see my world crumble.
Burned on my brain, the times when they gathered evidence of my flaws.
