I am not going to delete that post because even though it is Saturday night, you brought it up, and presumably you will concoct some kind of response while I wait, so you may as well know how I feel.
I feel like crap. This is my worst nightmare. Being judged by someone who is not even here. For stuff that is just so barely in my control.
I am so self conscious in the world now. It is horrible. And this is what being in some kind of connection with you is like.
I don’t want any part of it.
