connection – Blah LaLa

as to the possibility of a pet

A cat!?

It would probably do me the world of good

to take care of something outside myself.

Maybe it would snuggle with me,

On my couch or in my bed.

I would feel bad that it couldn’t go outside.

It would be captive.… Read the rest

Monday sleep ins – summer is here!!

Hey, good morning.

Do you have the day off today?

I am taking the day off pretty much. Slept late because I was up late stressing about the way I said goodbye to my old besties after our dinner last night.… Read the rest

ouch!! – what do you mean?

I am more than a little confused,

And it hurts already.

To go back to the towns where I feel so ashamed of myself.

And meet up with you?

I am not sure that my heart could cope with being stood up in that kind of situation.… Read the rest

nice happenings – in another world

Hmmmm. It is all very interesting. . . I hope you aren’t expecting me to come and visit. I feel the same way I did about it 9 months ago. In other words ‘why should I?’ How much work am I expected to do, while you do the bare minimum?… Read the rest

a little bit

Should I open my teary, aching soul and trust you enough to share something small from my heart?

Maybe it wouldn’t hurt.

Some of the people in my life are showing me the truth of their character.

I must have grown because I have never noticed these things before.… Read the rest

new rules

It is the strangest thing,

The calm.

All the octane has exited stage left.

Now, I am standing on a line between ‘maybe you care’ and ‘I don’t want to let you in’.… Read the rest

Toxic

What is this shit?

I open up for no good reason, and he spends his evenings with his partner.

It is beyond gross.… Read the rest

is it worth it?

I need to think about how I could be best using my energy. And I need to think about the long-term repercussions.

I do enjoy my evenings so much more when I am not hooked by this ‘Turtle story’. It is fun to talk to men, go down research rabbit holes, and work on a new creative project.… Read the rest

safe to assume, perhaps

Good morning,

I think you would have usually answered my question by now,

Unless you are saying that you have someone in your corner?

So, maybe I should assume that you do have a girlfriend.

Thanks for being honest with me, if that is the case.… Read the rest

that old chesnut

I feel sad.

There is something about this setup that makes me want to talk to you,

But you are off doing something else,

Probably something more important to you.

And it hurts.

Also, I think I may be a FOOL.… Read the rest