everyday life – Blah LaLa

as to the possibility of a pet

A cat!?

It would probably do me the world of good

to take care of something outside myself.

Maybe it would snuggle with me,

On my couch or in my bed.

I would feel bad that it couldn’t go outside.

It would be captive.… Read the rest

give me strength ((and so much sleep))

my hormones are doing a number on me.

i feel seedy and fragile, even though i had only 1/3 of a beer last night.

there is nothing i can do but ride it out.… Read the rest

morning – dreams

Good morning,

I had such a lovely dream this morning. I dreamt that a friend (or maybe my neighbour) was hosting a party. It was a funny kind of party though because everyone there got a present. In the dream, I was walking through rooms filled with all these people opening and playing with their gifts, hehe – lots of plants.… Read the rest

Cosy, rainy evening at the pub

Hello again,

I don’t know whether it is better to write when I want to, or wait to see you. But I am giving it a go tonight.

I feeeeel like chatting to you is why.

I am at the pub.… Read the rest

dopamine cravings

Helllllllloooooo, hehe.

The thing about working about working online (and phone meetings),

Is that I reach the end of the day, scratching around for more little dopamine hits, hehe.

It is energising in a different way, I suppose.

And I am not sure what the mindful antidote to it is,

Except for a mindfulness practice, perhaps!… Read the rest

Hope you’re having a good day

I have been lucky today,

My support client didn’t need me for too long,

And so, I have been working on my computer today.

It is chill,

But I need to climb over a hurdle to motivation right now.

I want to go for a walk so that I can add some more steps to my weekly total.… Read the rest

Filled to the gills with hormones

Good morning.

Thanks for your visits today. It was nice to see you.

Sorry, I didn’t write earlier. I still feel like being quiet.

And I don’t feel so good.

My web client suggested I quit coffee. How could she say such a thing!?… Read the rest

grass seeds in socks

It is actually hormones that are making me feel so crappy today, I think.

It seems that peri was going to catch up with me eventually.

I feel like the equivalent of grass seeds in socks, haha.

My day was the opposite of mindfulness.… Read the rest

nothing if not crappy

I feel so aggravated,

And I need a day to re-equilibrate,

But it is not possible to call in sick to my cooking job,

It is a major design flaw.

What if I actually get sick?

I need to re-imagine my working life, I think.… Read the rest

a different kind of Tuesday morning

I am in a party mood,

Web design isn’t so bad if the day has meetings,

And results!

Even if it feels more natural to get out,

And be around people in the morning.

Getting out for a walk in the sunshine with the my dog friends,

Is so joyful.… Read the rest