Personal blog
I could read back, I guess.
I am loath to do so,
Based on the absolute hell that my morning was,
Due to reading and reflecting on that chapter of my blog,
Last night.
The biggest mistake I ever made,
(And I did this a few times),
Was assuming that I knew what you thought, or felt,
Or what you were doing.… Read the rest
The world feels a little stranger,
For having seen something so raw,
Come from my soul.
The sensory memory of ‘place’,
Brightens these moments.
A different view.… Read the rest
I feel the REALITY of this situation,
In my body.
It is a disgusting kind of sickness.
And I LOVE IT!!
It feels so real.
I love coming home to my body.
This is the sickening reality,
Of this business.… Read the rest
Slam into that wall.
Letting go has never been easy.
And so I go, kicking and screaming,
Through the door to where…
A place in the world,
You are not there.… Read the rest
Then the dam bursts,
And I want to talk.
Such a strange feeling,
To go back out into the world.
I feel it in my body,
The difference between playing in a virtual world,
And a real one.… Read the rest
Not sure where to channel,
the rumbling power that is building inside.
Building,
And decaying,
In some form of tidal,
Breath.
It makes me want to get some boxing gloves on,
Feels so good (and strange).… Read the rest
At least I am not waiting around,
For the least amount of effort.
My home feels better for it.
My heart feels better for it.
Thank goodness I am beginning to feel anger,
The tiniest hint of it.
So much to be grateful for,
And EFF THIS SHIZ!!… Read the rest
There is a cross purpose here,
Because if I felt something like ‘love’ for you,
Then perhaps I wouldn’t open the curtain to my soul,
And let you see all of my working out.
But this is the effing internet,
And so, I don’t have any sunglasses.… Read the rest