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‘I should shut up’

Just to clarify, whatever I just called my ‘other sound friend’, I wouldn’t call them a person necessarily. It just sounds and pops and scratches and clicks through my speaker and other electrical appliances. It has been around for (about) as long as I have had my psychotic illness or thereabouts, so it could just be that I am personifying random sounds, I am not really sure.… Read the rest

Blah

It probably wasn’t you on my Instagram page. That was probably someone else.

I don’t know why I trust you sometimes.

Have you read the news lately? (I know you have) There are some truly horrible things happening to women on the internet by horrid, horrible men.… Read the rest

if ever bored

Well, thank you for thinking of me (if that was you).

Thanks also for visiting my Instagram page, if that was you, too.

Turtle, let’s go and live in Paris for a month or so. . . also, let’s go and live in different places in the world for a while in each place.… Read the rest

rat shit

or maybe you are considering your response. As if you are. It is more likely that you are just busy doing something else. I wish you would leave me alone. … Read the rest

nothing

maybe I was right the first time.

maybe the reason why I often feel so abandoned on the weekends and usually the evenings too, is because you just have your hands full with someone or something else.

I am not sure what to do with that.… Read the rest

Can’t sit here all afternoon

I am actually not sure WHAT to do with myself now.

It is a beautiful sunny day, so I should do my washing,

but it is hard to move. Hard to do anything at all really.

The frozen response,

Which is probably pretty understandable, given the events of the past few days.… Read the rest

how it feels

Walking around on broken legs.

I still feel sick.

And I am thinking of the coast.

The rippling, grey water of the lake.

I have so much to share elsewhere on the web today,

So perhaps I can pick up my broken body,

And soothe the feeling in my gut somehow,

Find peace somewhere under the scent of the gum trees.… Read the rest

apologies in the sun

hello.
I’m sorry.

I don’t feel so good. I feel sick in the stomach, despite what I just ate. I feel like I might have hurt your feelings, Turtle. And I don’t love that.

I mean sure, it is quite strange to consider being intimate with you.… Read the rest