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wish I had a hammock

My soul is so smashed,

Molly and Digby’s mum’s bed is so uncomfortable,

It is the kind of bed I wake up in during the night and think: ‘seriously?’

I didn’t sleep so well,

And had to rush for work,

With a care team meeting afterwards,

So now my soul is a mess,

And I need to work out what to do with this night,

That would be soothing.… Read the rest

red wine and hugs

As much as it was a totally hare brained scheme (hehe),

I wish you were here tonight.

Hanging out with the doggies makes me feel like I want hugs, heh.

It is nice to see you though 🙂

Sorry I haven’t responded to what you mentioned about no contact yesterday.… Read the rest

soooo cosy

It is so comfy, sitting in this picturesque dining room while the doggies snooze on the couch,

There is such a cosiness to it. 🙂

I am listening to gentle binaural music to keep them company.

It must be a bit strange to have someone (not so) new come into their home and just take over!… Read the rest

into my body for a few

Something that I like about my cooking job,

Is the fact that it is an embodied experience,

The work happens mostly via my hands,

On my feet, in the kitchen.

Tonight, I have spent the evening learning,

Reading and writing.

I feel the urge to get out of my head,

And into my body, again.… Read the rest

thoughts upon waking

Excitement,

We are still talking.

And sometimes I count you in my blessings.

This morning I woke with a familiar regret,

If I had not left Melbourne in the first place,

Would life be better now?

I stopped to think about this.… Read the rest

interesting way of being

Good afternoon,

It is nice to see a bit more of you today!

I am not going to lie – I have missed you lately.

My afternoon has opened up with a cancellation.

I feel so wobbly! Haha.

So unsure of myself, and prone to mistakes.… Read the rest

the struggle

I have been feeling really crappy these past couple of days,

And I don’t have the energy to devote to talk about this disagreement.

I am sorry that I dismissed the issue yesterday.

I was frustrated.

And I am not feeling confident in my emotional responses at the moment.… Read the rest

in the east

There is something so different about surburbia.

I went on an adventure there today.

One nice thing is the greenery.

More of it!

Much more of it.

It is a strange place nonetheless.

Dominated by cars,

And shopping malls.… Read the rest

convenient

I think we need to make something explicit,

And that is that this thing we are doing,

Is nothing more than mutually convenient.

We are never going to meet up.

We are not moving towards a relationship.

Is this sounding about right to you?… Read the rest