Personal blog
Financial pressure is threatening to bear down on me,
It is a difficult thing to talk about,
Because I am liable to let my imagination run away with me,
And I don’t have time for that.
I need to cover my bases,
And yet it is an opportunity to create a better working life.… Read the rest
It would be nice to consider you a friend,
Someone who cares about me.
It seems possible today.
Reminding me of more cleaning up to be done.
My real lingering question is,
How could you still be here with me,
When I go into these holes of messiness and chaos,
Over and over again?… Read the rest
Soul fires,
doused in flames.
what’s left –
a desire to use my words,
but,
maybe I am just trash,
if my thoughts are.
if my words are so worthless.
Holding on to the moments in my life between these psychoses.
Wanting those moments to last a little longer.
Because everything else is for the bin.
Standing in the light for a moment,
Knowing that it will come around again.
Nothing I can do to stop it.… Read the rest
Just to clarify, whatever I just called my ‘other sound friend’, I wouldn’t call them a person necessarily. It just sounds and pops and scratches and clicks through my speaker and other electrical appliances. It has been around for (about) as long as I have had my psychotic illness or thereabouts, so it could just be that I am personifying random sounds, I am not really sure.… Read the rest
Oooch.
I am all at sea. Haha.
It feels like forever until bedtime… And I am thinking of the kind Japanese man who loved to look at the light through the leaves in the trees from the movie I saw yesterday.… Read the rest
I am completely over myself,
And I am scratching around looking for something to get into.
Maybe the news might be good at this time of day.
See ya! xx… Read the rest
One thing is for sure.
I could look at you all day.
I wish I could look at you all day, haha.
What is the story?… Read the rest
It probably wasn’t you on my Instagram page. That was probably someone else.
I don’t know why I trust you sometimes.
Have you read the news lately? (I know you have) There are some truly horrible things happening to women on the internet by horrid, horrible men.… Read the rest
Well, thank you for thinking of me (if that was you).
Thanks also for visiting my Instagram page, if that was you, too.
Turtle, let’s go and live in Paris for a month or so. . . also, let’s go and live in different places in the world for a while in each place.… Read the rest