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rat shit

or maybe you are considering your response. As if you are. It is more likely that you are just busy doing something else. I wish you would leave me alone. … Read the rest

nothing

maybe I was right the first time.

maybe the reason why I often feel so abandoned on the weekends and usually the evenings too, is because you just have your hands full with someone or something else.

I am not sure what to do with that.… Read the rest

Can’t sit here all afternoon

I am actually not sure WHAT to do with myself now.

It is a beautiful sunny day, so I should do my washing,

but it is hard to move. Hard to do anything at all really.

The frozen response,

Which is probably pretty understandable, given the events of the past few days.… Read the rest

how it feels

Walking around on broken legs.

I still feel sick.

And I am thinking of the coast.

The rippling, grey water of the lake.

I have so much to share elsewhere on the web today,

So perhaps I can pick up my broken body,

And soothe the feeling in my gut somehow,

Find peace somewhere under the scent of the gum trees.… Read the rest

apologies in the sun

hello.
I’m sorry.

I don’t feel so good. I feel sick in the stomach, despite what I just ate. I feel like I might have hurt your feelings, Turtle. And I don’t love that.

I mean sure, it is quite strange to consider being intimate with you.… Read the rest

worst nightmare

I am not going to delete that post because even though it is Saturday night, you brought it up, and presumably you will concoct some kind of response while I wait, so you may as well know how I feel.

I feel like crap.… Read the rest

fuck that

For all the good intentions with School of Life, I am starting to become quite angry about this.

It makes me angry because it fucks with my sense of self. We are not walking through the gardens. We are not having a drink together.… Read the rest

A change request

So, this seems to be a way that you want me to change. Perhaps you feel that you will be better able to endure me if I was thinner.

I think it is always going to be something. My first reaction is to say ‘just go and find someone you ARE attracted to, and leave me the hell alone to find someone who is attracted to me.’… Read the rest

merry winter solstice 2024

I am craving you 😉 Hehe,

But I will try to leave you in peace xx

I just wanted to come and wish you all a very merry winter solstice 😀

Hooray!! Hooray for a new solar year tomorrow.

I remember being excited about us this very time last year.… Read the rest