Blah LaLa – Page 9 – Personal blog

where I am at with it

I am not one to play games,

So I will tell you how I feel.

This morning it felt like my blood drained to my toes.

I thought that it made perfect sense.

There is a reason why it feels so bad.… Read the rest

safe to assume, perhaps

Good morning,

I think you would have usually answered my question by now,

Unless you are saying that you have someone in your corner?

So, maybe I should assume that you do have a girlfriend.

Thanks for being honest with me, if that is the case.… Read the rest

that old chesnut

I feel sad.

There is something about this setup that makes me want to talk to you,

But you are off doing something else,

Probably something more important to you.

And it hurts.

Also, I think I may be a FOOL.… Read the rest

Cosy, rainy evening at the pub

Hello again,

I don’t know whether it is better to write when I want to, or wait to see you. But I am giving it a go tonight.

I feeeeel like chatting to you is why.

I am at the pub.… Read the rest

dopamine cravings

Helllllllloooooo, hehe.

The thing about working about working online (and phone meetings),

Is that I reach the end of the day, scratching around for more little dopamine hits, hehe.

It is energising in a different way, I suppose.

And I am not sure what the mindful antidote to it is,

Except for a mindfulness practice, perhaps!… Read the rest

Hope you’re having a good day

I have been lucky today,

My support client didn’t need me for too long,

And so, I have been working on my computer today.

It is chill,

But I need to climb over a hurdle to motivation right now.

I want to go for a walk so that I can add some more steps to my weekly total.… Read the rest

Filled to the gills with hormones

Good morning.

Thanks for your visits today. It was nice to see you.

Sorry, I didn’t write earlier. I still feel like being quiet.

And I don’t feel so good.

My web client suggested I quit coffee. How could she say such a thing!?… Read the rest

a lot of ambiguity

It feels dangerous to admit that I care,

About your behaviour on my blogs.

I am alone in the vulnerability.

And maybe that will never change.

I should contemplate that fact,

Along with the reminder that one day I will be dead,

Every morning,

Before this circus begins.… Read the rest

a little bit weak

Counter-intuitively, it feels that maybe talking about us is just going to repeatedly end in tears.

At least that is what I am wondering right now.

But that begs the question – what direction could this content take?

I am just so washed out tonight.… Read the rest

shame

It is true, there has been some pretty effed up stuff happening in the world recently.

I find it pretty much unfathomable.… Read the rest